I've been trying to sleep on normal times rather than staying up 'til 3:00-4:00 in the morning, but I can't. For 2 weeks or so I just can't fall asleep for varying reasons until it's at least 3:00 or 4:00. Some nights there's just no apparent reason, I just can't fall asleep. Some nights, though, I've actually been unable to sleep because I just feel depressed ( should be contradictory, huh? ).
Most nights, though ( and this is far worse to me because it's a gigantic fear of mine ), as I'm just thinking about nothing, I somehow end up thinking of how I'll eventually die and I have to retreat to a small room, turn on the lights, and lock the door for about an hour while whispering "Das Männlein Im Walde" to myself out of pure fear of going asleep just to never wake up or because I think something's gonna jump out at me from the dark and kill me. ( Don't know why that song helps, I guess it's just to hear myself and it's the first thing I do without meaning to. )
Besides just venting, I wanna know if you guys have any suggestions about what I can do ahead of time to prevent this sorta thing. I'm tired of feeling like I just got hit in the gut by a wall of bricks and looking around as if I'm being hounded by someone relentlessly.